Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Paperback for "Last Kiss In Tiananmen Square" is ON SALE in Amazon for $10.79

"Last Kiss In Tiananmen Square", a love story between a Peking University student and her mother's formal lover set in the midst of the 1989 Tiananmen Square Massacre is selling like hot cakes.  It has been reduced to $10.79 per copy by Amazon due ot its popularity.  See the following excerpt.




Inferno


A soldier jumped off a truck next to the tank, carrying a pack of rope-like things.

As a short stout man, he approached her slowly as though he was afraid of her. When he was two feet away from her, he released the black rope in his hands. It was a two-meter long black leather whip.

The whip was like a snake dancing in the air and hit Wu Zheng's body. She did not move and did not even look at her torturer. Instead, she ran towards him.

"Give me back my husband!" Wu Zheng cried like a wild animal.

The whipping continued. Her white blouse was broken into shreds and was full of bloodstains. Then she caught the whip in her hand. She started pulling at it. With God's power in her hands, she got the whip away from the soldier and started whipping him.

While this was happening, Pumpkin struggled in her husband's embrace. "Let me go! Let me save her!"
"Are you crazy? You are going to be killed. I'm not going to let you go!" His face touched her face, and their tears mixed. This was the most intimate act they had ever shared.

Wu Zheng tightened the whip around the soldier's neck and began strangling him.

Cheers came from the crowd. "Kill him! Kill the bastard!"

The tank started rolling and crushed them both.

The angry people moved over towards the tank.

They threw fire torches and gasoline; the tank caught fire. It blazed in the dark and moonless night.
Everyone cheered as if they were the ghosts in Dante's inferno as the two soldiers were forced out of the tank.

The soldiers stumbled towards the angry people. As soon as they were away from the blazing tank, they were in the hands of the mob.

They beat them with sticks and metal bars. They spit on them. "Shall we kill them?"

"Of course. Why do you speak for the enemy?"

"They are not our enemies. They don't even know what they are doing."

"What do you mean? They have already killed innocent people. They are criminals." A middle-aged man went over, pulling at the collar of a young man as though he wanted to start a fight.

The soldiers disappeared in the crowd as their bodies were torn to pieces, and they quickly disintegrated through hundreds of angry hands.

Red-eyed people threw body parts back at the burning tank.

They held up their hands in a 'V' sign, until a spray of bullets from another vehicle gunned some of them down.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Jeremy Lin Got to Realize His Dream While My Dad Wouldn’t Allow Mine



When I was 14 years old, I was 5”6’ tall.  A basketball scout came to knock on my apartment door in the campus of the Beijing Institute of Aeronautics and Astronomy.  The scout said I should go to a Basketball training center.  My dad told him that we were not interested.  I, who had never played basketball before, didn’t know what to say.  All I remember was that my dad told me I should spend my time studying and playing violin.  Playing a sport was a waste of time. 

In China, people don’t believe someone could be good at both sports and academics.  They consider athletes to be dumb and stupid.   So my dad took away my one chance to utilize my tall body in a promising way.  Now after so many years, I wish that my dad had let me play basketball.  I think it is far-fetched that I would become a basketball star but at least I would have learned how to become a team player, a trait which I have acquired recently in my middle age.  I have become a sports nut in my own way, but my favorite sports are running, swimming, bicycling, skiing and skating, all of which are individual sports. 

So Jeremy Lin, the Knicks new star, an Asian American NBA basketball player was lucky to be born in the US.  If he were born in China, he would probably be forced to play piano or violin.  If he were “lucky” and discovered as a potential basketball star at a young age, he would most likely be sent to a basketball training camp far away and not allowed to see his family often.  So a normal family in China doesn’t usually let their kids pursue such a career at a young age unless they were orphans.  So my dad was being selfish for not letting me go to the basketball-training center. 

I happen to have a son who is 16 years old, 6”3’ tall and an aspiring basketball player. So Jeremy Lin intrigues me even though I don’t watch basketball games.  My knowledge about basketball has been gained from watching my son playing at middle school and high school games.  I normally don’t have time to watch games due to my duties as a working mother.  .  My interests fit into a stereotype Asian’s tastes.  I like classic music, theatre and movies.  If I have time, I often choose to go to these activities.  Sports are not something I would watch unless my son is playing.  As though fate is working against me, my son who has been taking piano lessons since he was 7, is very talented in sports.  The sport we encourage him to do is fencing, which we think it is not a very popular sport, so he has a chance to get ahead.  He also plays baseball with his friends in the summer and became the pitcher of his team for a couple of seasons.  As for basketball, he always shies away from it.  He was a scorekeeper for his Quaker School team for two years before he decided to try playing in middle school.  Then he flourished.  He quickly became one of the best players on his team.  At the same time, his body is telling him that he should be a basketball player because he was 6 feet tall in eighth grade and has kept growing to 6”2 in his freshman year in high school and 6”3 now in his sophomore year.  He even made it onto the better freshmen basketball team in his high school, whose man’s basketball team is among the top 5 in the state.  That was quite a challenge because he was playing with basketball players whose first words were “Basketball”.  Compared with them, his two years of playing is just not enough.  He was benched a lot but has also learned a lot.  This year, he didn’t even make the JV team of his high school.  He felt a little discouraged yet he went to play in a recreation league even after he promised to go back to fencing.  I know in his heart, he still loves basketball.  So let it be.  I’m not going to force him to do things he doesn’t like.  


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Tuesday, February 14, 2012

I'm Chinese Lolita




I'm also featured in Alison DeLuca's blog for Valentine's Day where you can read an excerpt of another one of my romantic short stories:

"Wild Fire" by Lisa Zhang Wharton

I'm sharing an excerpt from my award-winning short story, "My Uncle" in which the main character fell in love with her mother's lover.  This story will come out as an Amazon Single very soon as well as in my next book "Chinese Lolita".




It was a Sunday morning.  Mother said she was leaving for work.  Father hollered:  "You god damn woman, get out of here.  Go, stay with your fucking boyfriend.  You all get out of here, get out of my house!"

Father had just awakened.  His eyes were still fogged.  He sat on the bed, meditated for a while, and then stood up.  He stumbled a few steps toward the door and poked his head out of his room.

"Meihua, come back.  Who said you could go?"  He caught me before I slipped out the door.  "Go to the kitchen, and see if the garbage needs to be emptied.  God damn shit!  Why do you always have to be reminded?"  Waving a filthy athletic shoe in his hand, he stared at me with his half-open, beady eyes.  It seemed he might throw the shoe at my head if I did not obey him.  I went to the kitchen and did as I was told.
            
"Where are you going?"  Father saw me put on my tight nylon sweater which showed my two small breasts, and a few dabs of blush on my round face.

"I'm going to work!"  I said and slammed the door behind me.

It was a cold winter day.  The sun moved slowly from behind the white clouds like a shy girl.  Water from melting ice was dripping from the roof.  "Dita, dita."  It sounded so crisp.  With slightly softening soil under my feet, I opened the metal buttons on my grey down-coat and untied the blue wool scarf from my face.  I breathed deeply and let the unmuffled air enter my nostrils and flow into my lungs.  What a beautiful day!  I wanted to cry out.  Everything was going exactly as I had planned.  Father was right about Mother meeting her boyfriend.  But he did not know my secret.  I was going to see one of Mother's boyfriends too, of course a different one.  I used to call him "Uncle".

It was eight years since I had last seen Uncle Weiming.  I had lost track of him completely, but I was quite sure that he was still working at the same place.  People in China do not move until they scuff a hole deep enough to bury themselves.  Therefore, what should I do if I wanted to visit him?  Just go to the factory?  Like the old saying says, if you want to go north, just follow the North Star.  In this case I followed my instinct.
           
Sitting on the bus, I gazed at the trees that passed by so fast that I wished the bus would slow down.  Questions kept going through my mind.  What was I doing here?  Visiting Mother's old lover who had disappeared eight years ago?  Begging a married 35 years old man to be my father while I was old enough to be his lover?  Asking him to be my sister Mingming's father again when Mingming did not even know he existed?  It was like I was trying to pick up an old rotten melon.  My only accomplishment could be to soil my hands.
              
But in the last couple of weeks, a memory kept haunting me.
           
It was in 1976, a few weeks after Chairman Mao had died.  In an early afternoon, Uncle wandered into our one-story red brick apartment without knocking and sat down on a chair by the dining table.  Father, who had used to Mother's varieties of friends, nodded stiffly and walked out of the door.
            
"Uncle!"  Having not seen him in two weeks, I was excited.  Uncle looked at me and did not respond.  "I'll get Mom for you!"  I went in front of Mom's bedroom where door was shut closed.           "Mom, Uncle is here."  I knocked.
            
"Yes, just a minute."  In a while Mother strolled out with a cigarette in her mouth.  She closed the bedroom door (where she had a visitor) and sat next to Uncle.  They both kept silent for a while. 
            
"Got someone new?"  Uncle directed his chin toward Mother's closed bedroom.
            
"It's none of your business."
            
"You pick up fast.  Let me say this, if I may.  I know who he is.  He is a notorious asshole."
            
"OK!"  Mother stood up, ran into her bedroom and rushed back with a paper box in her hand.  She openned the box and smacked the whole box of photos of hers and Uncle's onto Uncle's face.  "Get out of here, I don't need you anymore!  You'd better go back to your pretty young girlfriend!" 
            
Uncle rose up and strode out of the door.
            
"Uncle, don't go!  Uncle, come back!"  I chased him and burst into tears.
            
From then on, laughter and happiness had disappeared in my life.  My heart along with those memories had become frozen until now.  There had been enough chaos at home.  My quiet, hard-working nature had pleased Mother and Father.  I had become such a useful child for them.  Gradually I had taken over the household.  I cooked, I shopped and I even managed the money.  When Mother had a problem, she would complain to me; when Father was hungry, he would ask me to make something for him to eat.  I had been used to the life and felt proud for the responsibilities until I went to college.  My vision for life suddenly changed.  I realized people did laugh and joke in life; life did not just consist of constant working.  I felt incompetent.  I needed help.  But who could help me?  Uncle, the long disappearing Uncle suddenly came back into my memory.  "Go to see him.  Go to see him."  A voice was telling me.

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Monday, January 23, 2012

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Thursday, January 19, 2012

The Best Part In "Last Kiss In Tiananmen Square": Baiyun's Dysfunctional Family in a Dysfunctinal Society

                                     An Excerpt from Chapter 4


It was a small, odd-shaped hallway, with the kitchen and a room on the left and an entrance that led into two rooms on the right. The white wall in the hallway was cold and smooth like porcelain under the late afternoon sun.  Dried-up bok choy, muddy turnips and tall spinach lay, looking tired, against the wall.  In the middle of the hallway, to one side, stood a refrigerator and an old bamboo dish cabinet set on top of a wet-looking wooden rack. 
Baiyun walked in her father's bedroom, which was also the dining room. Her father was sunk down into a cushioned wooden chair trimming the end of a twig.  A pot of sand sat next to the twig.  In the dim light of a desk lamp, he examined the twig to make sure the cut was perfect.  After several tries, he buried the end of the twig in the sand and set it next to a row of pots on the windowsill.  With the help of the magnifying glass, he examined them one by one.  "Meow, meow!"  He yowled, and Baiyun took it as a sign of pleasure.        
"Father," said Baiyun, which startled him.
"Oh.  What are you doing here?"  He looked at Baiyun with his old eyes and went right back to his trimming task.
After taking care of the plants, Father returned to his desk.  He began scribbling on scraps of paper.  Once in a while he would crumple the paper and throw it into the wastebasket.  Then he took a new piece and scribbled some more.  Finally he held a sheet of paper in front of his nose and laughed loudly.
"One and a half rats per flower pot, my honored citizens.  That's right.  Ha, ha..."
He spun around on his chair and picked up a white plastic pail from underneath the desk, which was full of dead rats.  He took out the rats one by one and laid them on the dirt in flowerpots.  Returning to his desk, he began cutting the rest of rats in half with a huge pair of rusty scissors, one after another.  Blood spilled on the floor, and sprayed onto his clothes and face.
"Meow, meow!"  He seemed to enjoy the taste of blood in his mouth.
Watching this, Baiyun couldn't stand it anymore.  She ran out of the room and thought about leaving that disgusting place.  Then she remembered her duty to bring food to father.  She opened the refrigerator and found some cold stir-fry.  She heated it up on the gas stove in the small kitchen and walked back to the dining room with one hand on her nose.
Father was writing comments between the lines of a textbook using a magnifying glass.  The book itself revealed why he had to use the magnifying glass.  It was a textbook of advanced mathematics called, "Special Function" that had equations and words.  However, a handwritten version also was superimposed on top of the print.  In fact most of the printed version had been either crossed out or pasted over with handwritten text. 
Baiyun left the food on his desk. Underneath the glass on the table, Baiyun noticed many new pictures of red and purple roses.
Father wolfed down his food and continued his writing on the textbook.  After a few minutes, his head nodded. His hand dropped with the weight of the magnifying glass.  The pen stopped; blue ink soaked through the page and created a large stain on the page.  In a minute, loud snoring sullied the silence. Under the dim lamplight, the flushing of his face made him look like a roasted animal.
Baiyun looked away and only to set her eyes on pots of roses in full bloom.  Their color ranged from yellow to pink and from red to black.  But most were bloody red like a girl's lipstick ready to be kissed.
Baiyun realized her parents were in no mood or shape to talk to her.  Before she decided to leave, she heard a motorcycle approaching. She decided to sit at the desk at the middle of the room.
Lao Zheng rushed into the apartment without knocking. He nodded to Baiyun, winked at her, and then went straight to Meiling's bedroom after letting the curtain down.  The curtain on Meiling's bedroom door was like a woman's summer dress—just long enough to hide the mid-parts of the body.
Meiling asked him "How much do we have now?"
"Oh, about twenty thousand," Lao Zheng answered.
"No, I don't believe you.  You must have put away some for yourself."
"Come on, woman.  You can't be serious.  Have I ever cheated you?"
"Stop!"  It was the sound of Meiling slapping Lao Zheng.  "Don't think you can lay me as soon as you get here.  Get serious for a minute.  If a civil war started, we wouldn't have anything left.  We'd better find a way to save our hard earned money."
"Okay, but let's talk about that later."
"Oh!  What do you want?  What do you want?  Ha, ha..."Meiling's hysterical laugh indicated she was no longer ill.  The handsome tiger embroidered on the dark brown knitted curtain suddenly came alive.  His widely open mouth and pointed teeth revealed his great hunger.
"Don't be too rough with me!  I'm sick."
"Come on, I'm the cure for your illness."
Two pairs of feet in slippers appeared in the space beneath the curtain.  One was big and strong with bulging veins under rough dark skin, the other tiny and elegant as marble.  They moved closer, separated and rose up onto the bed.  The door was closed shut.
The tiger on the curtain seemed to roar.  The curtain was thick and impenetrable.  Peering through the tiger's eyes, Baiyun could see Meiling's and her boyfriend's ecstatic faces that made her look away immediately.  Just before she was about to leave, she saw her father go into the kitchen.
Father lit a burner, took a fire poker and laid it on the fire.  When the tip was red hot, he picked it up and marched toward Meiling's bedroom.  Without hesitation, he jabbed the fire poker directly through the eye of the tiger on the curtain.  A hissing sound told her Meiling's bedroom door was closed and Father had also burned a hole through the wood.  Then he burned another and another.  Finally he threw down the poker, jumped at the door and, like a lizard crawling on a wall, spied into Meiling's room through the holes he had made.  He leaned against the door, making it squeak, then he turned toward one side and slid down.  Something was growing in the front of his pants.  He put his hand in, rubbing and squeezing.  His face was scarlet and twisted.
"Aaeh!  Aaeh!"  This time his moaning became harsher and more intense.

Monday, January 2, 2012

I’m Chinese Girl With the Dragon Tattoo


I neither have spiky Mohawk hair nor do I have the dragon tattoo on my back.   I don’t walk around in a heavy motorcycle helmet and a pair of leather army boots.  Yet inside me, I’m every bit like her.  I have leather skin around my heart, spikes poking out of my lungs and tattoos stenciled on my intestines.  Like LisBeth, I was physically abused at a young age and was raped twice in my twenties but my math skills have helped me to find a bona fide job.   My heart was so insolated that when I was raped, I didn’t even know it was rape until 25 years later when I was reading the story in my writing group.  Here is the story that happened twenty five years ago when I came to this country fresh out of China.  I was not affected at the time due to my lack of knowledge or sex education in China.  I will relate more stories of my family in future posts and you will see why I was not hurt by this event.

Raped in Fargo

My Professor Dr. Swirsky, was a tall and slender man with messy salt and pepper hair.  When he wrote on the blackboard, he had to twist his tall frame 90 degrees in order to write with his left hand.   He taught “Quantum Mechanics” and also served as my faculty/adviser.
On my first day, he cleared a bench top for me as my desk and gave me a stack of research papers on the “Structure of Protein Molecules” to read.  Soon I started going to the lab routinely.   Time went fast for me.   Very soon the snow started falling and my short bicycle commute became a long trudge through the snow.  I was wearing the warmest down jacket one could find in China.  I was wearing a pair of long underwear beneath my jeans, kept my mitten-covered hands in the jacket pockets.  I naturally curled up my body to reserve the heat, yet this was not enough.  The cold wind blew onto my naked face like many knives.  My eyelashes got frozen.  My feet cried for help.  I might just as well stop and become a snowman.  Once I got home, it was such a treat to have our homemade egg rolls, fresh out of the hot oil. 
This was how I met Mohammad.  Just like me he was a new graduate student from Lebanon.  He had black hair, bushy mustache and a pair of penetrating eyes.  He loved to ask me questions.  When he was asking, he would stare at me.  I could feel a sense of desire shooting out of his very expressive eyes.  He was rude but macho.  Sometimes he would snatch my pencil away from my hand while I was doing my homework.
“Hey, stop!  Help me!”  He pointed at his chest as though I didn’t understand him.  I didn’t mind teaching him since I was an instructor at Beijing Medical University before I came to the US and also was offered a half-time TA (teaching assistant) during my first quarter at the North Dakota State.  With my limited English, I did remarkably well.  I used my body language and my sense of humor.  My outstanding troubleshooting skills really helped me in teaching the physics lab. 
At first, I thought that the students talked rather fast.  But they were good-natured and did not mind occasionally repeating for me.  Sometimes they would repeat questions in my funny accent.  There was chemistry evolving between me --- a young student from P.R. China and these pink-faced American students.  At the end, I gave everyone a B or better except for two students whose lab reports were messy and illegible.  They came to me sad faced.
“Why did you give us  ‘C’s’?”
Looking at these two innocent students, my heart fell for them.  I changed their lab grades to “B”.  I loved to see happy faces.  I was not much a believer in grades anyway, even though I was mostly an “A” student all throughout my grade school and high school.  I knew how misleading it could be.
Mohammad loved to drive me around in his old Chevy.  I didn’t always have time to go with him.  I only remembered going with him once.  The car radio played Rock’n Roll music while we were driving on the quiet highway.  I didn’t know much about Rock ‘n Roll music, not even the Classic Rock.   Before I left China, I listened to Beethoven’s Third, Fifth and Ninth Symphonies --- quite a change from the Communist Revolution music I used to sing and listen to.  I actually enjoyed it.  Besides I used to listen to the classic music my father played with his violin when I was young.  I had never heard of Jazz music, let alone Rock n’ Roll.  I just grew up in much more ancient time than the rest of the world.  Since I was so behind, I had never had time or tried to catch up.  It didn’t really matter. Rock n’ Roll music was not supposed to have deep meaning.  It reflected the easy and happy mood in American culture or the culture of the western world that was so different than my upbringing.  I was told as I was growing up that life was hard and happiness was to be earned.  I thought that I would never understand Rock n’ Roll. 
Mohammad spoke of his family.  His parents got married when they were both teenagers, his father 15 and his mother 12.  He had several sisters.  He also had a nice girlfriend.
“But she deedn’t wanta to cum here.”
I didn’t want to go out with him even though he often stared at me hungrily like a wild animal.  I found that attractive but I did not love him.
Sometimes we studied together at night mostly because he wanted me to help him with his homework in “Quantum Mechanics” or “Classic Mechanics”.  One day he asked me to go to his apartment after studying.
“Come on.”  He stared at me, his eyes burning with desire in a dark night with a few stars in the sky. 
            “No.”  I shook my head.  My quiet voice implied that I wanted to.  Yet I couldn’t.  Even though sleeping with someone who desired my body sounded attractive in a cold winter night, what would my roommate think if I came home late or not at all?  She would worry about me.  She might think something bad had happened to me like being seduced into a classmate’s apartment or simply being murdered.  She would for sure gossip about me if she found out that I had slept with a Lebanese man.  Deep inside me, I wanted to.  I imagined what it was like being kissed and caressed by a wild man.  But I never budged.  Mohammad, however, didn’t give up.  He invited me again to have lunch with him a few days later.  He made it sound like just lunch, nothing else.  I actually believed it. 
            “Come on.  Come to my apartment and I will cook for you.  I can also show you some Arabic art and my family photos.”
            “What are you going to cook?”  I asked.
            “You will find out.”
            After he drove me to his one bedroom basement apartment, I found out that there was neither art on the walls or any windows.  He mixed a couple of eggs and fried them in a small frying pan.  During lunch, he told me about his experiences during the war.
            I was impressed by his courage.  I admired people who had participated in a war, whether he or she was forced into it or volunteered.  Being able to confront death could open up an entire new world in one’s psyche.  I was listening to him with admiration.
            “I was wounded once.  Do you wanta to thee my scar?”  He said earnestly.  In his eyes, I did not see any of the usual animal desire.  I was going to say yes.  I wanted to.  Before I could utter a word, he took off his pants.  Apparently he had to take off his underwear to show me the scar.  Then he quietly pulled me into the bedroom.  I tried to refuse but it was too late.  He pulled down my pants and underwear and leaped on top of me.  I screamed and said “No.  No” repeatedly.  I was not sure what he had done to me.  All I could see was that there was blood on his white bed sheet.  It took me another year or two before I found out that I really lost virginity that day with Mohammad because I was not convinced at the time.  It went so fast.  I didn’t think he entered me at all.  I quickly gathered up things and left.  He had to drive me back to my apartment.
            “You never had sex before?”
            “No.  I want to be a virgin until I get married.  I want to save my virginity for my husband.”
            “I thought you had a boyfriend in China.”
            “Yes.”
            “What did you do together?”
            “Talk.”
            “I don’t understand.  How do you express love?”
            “We kissed each other.”
            This was last time he invited me to his apartment.  He stopped staring at me with the animal desire.  Every now and then, he still asked me to help him with his homework.  I sometimes saw him waiting outside of the student union for someone to show up, a new girlfriend I guessed.
            After this episode, I didn’t want to have a boyfriend for a long time.   It was as though this experience with Mohammad had stunned me and left a bitter taste in my mouth.  I wanted to have a relationship that was caring and mutual.  “Some day”, I told myself.
            Twenty-five years later, after I read this story to my friends in my writing group, one of them said, “This is rape.  You were raped!”  All of sudden, a light bulb lit up in my head.  I WAS RAPED twenty-five years ago and didn’t even know.  I was speechless.  I didn’t which was more painful, being raped or not knowing it.  All I knew was that I didn’t have much trouble with men in my life thereafter.  I married not only once but also twice.  I had relationships with a handful of people in my life.  I had experienced passionate love.  So this rape did not scar me.  It didn’t even bother me.  What bothered me more was I did not know it.  But why?

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